I'm talking to myself about Google. Again.

It's just that Aileen's twitter keeps bugging me. (It isn't meant to bug anyone, of course.) It keeps saying "Wanted still: localisation editor". Not all the time, but it pops up every now and then.

I bet you don't see what's so wrong about that Twitter status. You know why? That's because there IS nothing wrong with that Twitter status. So why is it bugging me?

Easy.

'Coz I want the job.

But then I don't.

Harhar. Talk about indecision. I heard about that job opening when Aileen posted it in GPhilippines on... April... I think. And I've been mulling it over every once in a while since then.

Ever since I fell in love with Google —umm...yeah. I'm a Googlephile, if you haven't noticed yet from my recent posts— I've been wondering what it'd be like to work there. It sounds super awesome, and...

Well, come on. It's Google!!!

Plus, given the fact that I'm pretty obsessed with translation (as most of you have seen from my previous rant, lost in translation), I guess you could say it'd be a good job for me if I get hired.

That is, IF I apply at all.

I probably won't because
(1) I don't meet the requirements [namely the first],
(2) my passport is expired,
(3) I like my present job [Okay, so it's not as cool as working Google, but I like it, anyway], and
(4) there is no number 4.

Oh, wait, there is! Number 4: I'm making way too many excuses, it makes me wonder if I actually do want the job or not.

Riiiiiiiight.

I guess I just have this occasional tendency to box my "dreams" or über-cool things to be... well... to be precisely that: dreams and über-cool things that I can't reach. Most times I actually muster my guts and dive into the unknown (like I did when I applied for my current job), but sometimes the nervousness bug bites me. And so I limit myself. Because of that, I end up not getting that über-cool thing, like I chalked it up.

Sucks.

Ah, well.

In case you would like the job, and have more guts than I do, then, by all means, click the link at the top of this post, and try your luck. ^^

Friday, June 15, 2007

What class are you?

You Are Upper Middle Class

You're stuck in an interesting middle area between upper and middle class. You're wealthy enough for most people to call you rich (or at least comfortable), but you don't feel rich! Climbing your way to the top is hard work. And you've often feel stretched for time and resources. If only you had a little more money! You can't help but wish you had the lifestyle of the upper class. You may end up: A manager, high school teacher, or accountant. Other people who share your class: "White collar" professionals and business people

What Class Are You?

You're stuck in an interesting middle area between upper and middle class.

Stuck? STUCK?! Nooooooo~ I don't wanna be stuck!!! >_<

You may end up: A manager, high school teacher, or accountant.

I'm a manager, but my boss keeps telling me that I'm an executive. He says, and I quote, "A manager just sees to it that daily tasks are done. An executive thinks out of the box , and comes up with what to do for the day."

Climbing your way to the top is hard work. And you've often feel stretched for time and resources.

Rawr. So true. Stress, stress, stress. My eyebags are growing. @_@

You're wealthy enough for most people to call you rich (or at least comfortable), but you don't feel rich!

The quiz results are pretty much accurate, actually. People have ALWAYS thought me to be rich. (That's hard especially in elementary and high school because classmates expect me to treat them for snacks or something. Gak! Peer pressure...) They usually base it on my mannerisms, speech patterns, food preference, choice of TV shows and movies, hobbies, and... other things.

Yeah, I live comfortably, and I thank God for it, but I hardly call myself rich.

...

Yet.

Check back in a couple of years... Let's see then. Heeheehee.

Thursday, April 26, 2007

my kitsune is picking oranges

I just noticed that it's been a long time since I've written anything about my life.

I mean, sure, the Internet is a significant chunk of my life --- a really huge chunk at that --- but the realization that I've been blogging about almost nothing but the Internet pretty much concerns me. Just look at the recent posts, will you? They've been about other people's websites, the Pepsi contest, my blog and SEO.

I haven't been writing about me.

Me as a person, me as a daughter, me as a friend, me as a girl. Self-centered, I know. But it's still kind of alarming. Does that mean I'm that wrapped up in the net? That my world revolves around it now?

Ha! Bollocks! Of course not!

Still, it does appear that way, doesn't it?

To tell you the truth, my routine for the past weeks had been work-sleep, work-sleep. There was a point about a month ago that I kept dreaming of our system. I was programming in my dreams. No exaggeration. The great part about it, though, is that there were several nights that I actually solved a debugging problem in my dream. When I woke up, my first thought was "This is AWESOME, I can't believe I figured that out!" My second thought was "Oh no... This can't be right. I can NOT be dreaming of programming."

Let it be known, though, that I still actually have a life outside the computer. I still have a family at home, with whom I've been marathoning Prison Break and Cirque du Soleil and Oscar Award-winning movies with. I still have friends I see on weekends. I still have my God I praise every day.

I don't know why I haven't been writing about my life like I did before. Change of writing style? Not really. Tilt of interest? Maybe. Tweaking of lifestlyle? Most likely.

So, in case you run into me one of these days and I start yakking techie terms and about my adventures with SEO, please please grab me by the shoulders and say, "Sarah, stop being a geek for a second and talk about something else."

That, or just stuff a chocolate in my mouth.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

phew!

You Are 11% Burned Out

You are not burned out in the least. Even though you work hard, you know how to pace yourself. You are responsible, but you never let your responsibilities drain you. You realize that taking care of yourself always comes first.

Are You Burned Out?

By the grace of God, not yet.

Work has been insane, but I'm still smiling.

Even as I bang my head on my desk.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

makin' the web a better place

...or, at least making it look better.

Okay. Before anything else, I would like to declare a disclaimer: I am NOT a self-proclaimed web design guru or anything. And I don't have OCD over this that I'll go into tantrums just because some people like colors that... well... to put it bluntly: colors that hurt my eyes.

But, yeah.

I love web design.

And I like to have the web looking nice.

And... sometimes a day's work really wears me out to the point that I HAVE to design a web page or else I'll go insane.

Okay. Let's get into the actual blog entry.

I was promoted last month (read more here), and that gave way to a new office, a new salary, a new schedule and, most importantly, new responsibilities. To be honest about it, it made my day busy, exciting, and... downright tiring. My bedtime even reverted back to 10 pm as if I was a high school student all over again! I was planning and analyzing and hiring and ARGH sometimes I just want to bang my head on my desk.

Err... NO I did not bang my head on my desk. I liked the shape of my skull as it was, thank you very much. Instead, I designed webpages just for the sake of doing something different. The great thing about this is: it actually served as practice. I mean, making web designs is my job, anyway. It just so happened that I wasn't designing at the moment.

So I revamped my blogs...

And then...

And then I ran out of blogs to update. So I went and offered CSS and HTML help to friends who needed my God-given skills... And then I offered help to friends who weren't really asking for help, but welcomed it anyway...

And now I'm open for requests. If you need help designing or redesigning your blog or website, I can help. I might not be able to work on it immediately, and I may not be able to finish it at once, but I will work on it on bang-my-head-on-my-desk moments.

So yeah. Hit me. And let's make the web a better-looking place.

Thursday, February 01, 2007

Lipsum

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Donec urna est, malesuada in, dignissim sit amet, laoreet id, sem. Vivamus ac dui. Sed pretium tincidunt mi.

Nulla semper.

Curabitur id risus. Morbi accumsan commodo elit. Mauris nisi nisi, viverra eget, nonummy sit amet, lobortis et, risus. Donec ultrices urna sed massa.

• Vestibulum pellentesque. Fusce iaculis. Nulla.
• Curabitur quam dolor, posuere a, consectetuer sed, tristique.
• Suspendisse eros erat, elementum sed.

Donec commodo est eget felis. Nunc velit odio, posuere a, ullamcorper a, commodo vel, velit. Phasellus libero nulla, auctor a, auctor non, convallis ac, libero. Pellentesque velit lacus, posuere in, aliquet nec, elementum nec, nulla. Cras vitae sem. Maecenas risus tellus, feugiat quis, rutrum sit amet, tincidunt vel, ipsum. Etiam mi. Phasellus molestie scelerisque eros. Maecenas tortor.

Praesent vitae urna nec leo sagittis adipiscing.

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Yep. Just celebrating the fact that I'm lipsumming again. Ha. I can't believe I missed web design coding this much. ^_____________^

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

...

I just wanted to distract myself for a second.

But then I can't afford to be distacted right now.

But ARGH I need a distraction for a second.

So yeah. My second's done.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

level up

At the start of the year, I was excited for our annual 7-day prayer and fasting, because, aside from the more obvious reasons, this was going to be my first time to do it as a single professional. There was so many new things to pray for!

But as I was preparing, I found that I didn't know what to pray for.

As a student, it was easy: academic excellence, favor from (terror) teachers, a bigger allowance... As a professional, I guess the equivalent could be excellence in my work, favor from bosses, and a raise in my salary. Or, in one word: promotion.

But I thought: it was way too early to ask for a promotion. After all, this was my first job in the field that I graduated from, and I've only been working in the office for three months. I wasn't even regularized yet!

Still, I decided to pray for it. "God," I said, "thank you for the promotion you're going to give me... sometime within this year..."

The prayer and fasting started. And, for the first six days, my quiet time was...

...

quiet.

I didn't hear anything special from God; There was no musical band and fireworks in the background while a revelation dawned on me. Nothing special really happened; There was no action-packed sequence of unbelievable events.

It was just... normal.

But I guess there's nothing wrong with that.

On the seventh day, Thursday, I read this scripture: I will praise to the Lord according to his righteousness, and will sing praise to the name of the LORD most high. That made me realize that it's not about what I will hear from God, it's not about what God will do for me. It's about Him.

His righteousness, Him that is worthy of praise, His name that is most high.

I was grinning for hours. (See previous post for more details.) I thought: WOW. This was it. Solb na 'ko. I can end prayer and fasting on a high note. That made my week. I'll feel awesome today even if nothing else happened...

Well, haha for me.

At the office in the same day, a group of us, our CEO included, were talking about this department that we were going to set up soon. Well, actually, we were already setting it up.

To my shock and amazement, my boss asked me, a three-month-old employee, to be the head of that department.

...

Head of the friggin' department!!!!

I just nodded, smiling. But needless to say, I was jumping up in down in my head. I SO did not expect that. Sure, I'd been praying for promotion, but I had NO idea that it was going to happen so soon!

But God did.

He planned it all along.

So, friends, I encourage you: believe God for great things. Because he has even greater things in mind for you.

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On a side note: my department is in web design. The one reason I took up Computer Science in the first place.

Monday, October 16, 2006

online but never online

So it's my third Monday here at work.

And I'm always online, thanks to our -- whoosh!!!!!! --- 100Mbps connection.

Actually, up until recently, I've been satisfied with a dial-up internet connection at home. I know it's slow compared to DSL, yeah, but I haven't been frustrated with it enough to actually get rid of our dial-up connection in favor of high speed DSL. So, I said, if and when I begin working as a web developer, I shall have access to internet speeds that I have never experienced before, and I'll maximize it by downloading the music, stock photos and whatever else I want as I work. During breaktime, I'd probably blog or something, keeping an updated log of my experiences in this new phase of my life.

Well, here's the funny part. Ironically enough, I haven't actually been using it as much as I had imagined I would. I have yet to try to download music, I have yet to have long YM chats with friends, and... well...

This is actually the first time I'm doing something online that is not actually work. And I only do it because my boss told me to surf for a while so I could rest my fried brain.

So...yeah.

Ain't it interesting, how one can be so excited about getting one thing and then, suddenly, not take advantage of it when one finally received it.

Just a thought from my work-fried brain.

Or maybe it isn't because of work.

Maybe it's because it's Monday.